Christmas Mommy

Christmas is almost here! Christmas is definitely my favorite time of year. I love the hustle and bustle, spending time with family, wrapping gifts that have been picked out with much thought, and decorating our home. OH...I almost forgot to mention the yummy food and treats! This year Christmas has special meaning because its the first year that Connor actually has somewhat of a clue as to what happens on Christmas. For most, Christmas is a time to celebrate the birthday of Christ. Connor hasn't quite grasped that concept yet though we have been reading "The Christmas Story" that Nana bought him his first Christmas. Instead, he is most excited about all of the Christmas lights and he specifically points out each and every snowman, Santa and reindeer we pass on our daily routes. I love this....he'll say "Look Mommy, its Christmas mommy Christmas!" Words cannot describe how utterly cute his little voice sounds when he says Christmas in his own lil way. It melts my heart. He'll often say "Mommy...Santa brings presents Mommy!"

I look forward to waking up on Christmas day to see his precious little face when he sees that Santa did visit him and leave him some goodies. He'll be thrilled to see that Santa is well aware that chocolate is his most favorite thing! That's my boy!

Cluttered but Happy....

I am sitting on the couch looking at the absolute mess in my house and dreaming of the day renovations are complete and my house can be neat and orderly! Hubby and I live in a three bedroom one bath house that we outgrew the day we moved in. That's okay...its our little abode! And right now...its unorganized and messy and desperately calling out for a good cleaning! We began work on our house about two months ago...new roof, yard detailing, new crown molding and trim and new interior paint. My poor husband was working out of town during the week and then coming home on the weekends to do more work! I appreciate him for that more than he knows. Thankfully, we have recently had the opportunity to have "workers" come to the house to do the renovations instead of Hag having to do them himself....what a difference it makes! Now he gets to come home on the weekends and not necessarily have to work equally as hard as he does when he is out of town. I am rambling about this because I have definitely realized that clutter and disorganziation adds to my anxiety and makes me extremely irritable. I have the desire to have a clean and organized home that is always ready for company. Lately, it's been so unorganized because of the renovations that I look at the house and feel completely overwhelmed with where to start the clean up and organization. Not to mention that having a little guy in the house doesn't help...don't worry I am not ready to turn him...I think I'll keep him :) So I write this entry with hopes and dreams of a super organized, clean house with all the latest in interior design and maybe even warm cookies coming out of the oven just in case we have company. And well, if we don't have company, I'll take care of the cookies!

Thoughts on Food

Okay...so I have joined Weight Watchers again! Every time I try to diet it forces me to think about my relationship with food..yep that's right...I have an intimate relationship with food. Not just any food but fattening and sugary foods. Pre Weight Watchers, there was nothing like a juicy hamburger from Five Guys, a slice of cheesecake from Cheesecake Factory or a number 1 meal from Chick-fil-a. Let me not forget the sweets that always call my name such as chocolate-peanut butter ice cream, cinnamon rolls, candy and anything chocolate I can get my hands on!

Yes, I enjoy food but even more so I think eating is something I do when bored or anxious, it makes me feel better. It's hard to admit but food often does for me what alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, and other unhealthy vices do for others....it is satisfying for the moment but afterwards I end up angry that I couldn't stop at one cookie...why did I need 3 cookies???

And so my weight loss journey has begun. I am excited. I love the way I feel when I lose weight..I love wearing the skinnier clothes and not worrying about whether or not my stomach and thighs looks too big.

Stay tuned...hopefully I'll be able to report progress in the upcoming weeks!