Feeling Lonely

Well, I waited a week to post again but really had enough last week to share that I could have written every day. Just to catch you up....I've had workers around my house everyday working in our yard and roof, my lil guy pulled all the keys off my laptop as if he had done nothing wrong, and my husband was gone one more night than expected. Maybe I was so frustrated that I didn't have the energy needed to formulate thoughts. I don't know.



So that leads us to this week. Fortunately, my husband was in town on Monday night so I had one night with him but then he ended up having to leave a day earlier than expected. So needless to say, me and my lil guy are "doing what we do." Meaning...I go to work, he goes to the sitter, we come home, play or watch movies (that we have seen a least a thousand times), eat, take a bath and go to bed. Not that I don't enjoy every second with my son because I know he will only be this age once, but this week I am really craving adult interaction! Sometimes it gets lonely, its my job to take care of and entertain my son not the other way around. Not even that I need to be entertained all the time but I do need adult stimulation. This has always been important to me which is probably why I take every opportunity I get to be social because the more I think about it, I am a really social person that needs social interaction to feel in balance. This should not be misconstrued to the perception that I don't love and adore my own immediate family, but lately I feel a great need to spend time alone with my husband, to connect and enjoy each other. It's been hard to do that lately given the house remodeling and the importance of my hubby spending time with our son when he is in town. My son loves his daddy and that really makes me smile! However, when I can't have the one on one time with my husband, my friends become even more important (but my friends have always been important to me and I understand the importance of maintaining true friendships).



So, after much rambling, the bottom line is that sometimes I feel lonely. This is no one's fault but more a feeling that I have based on circumstances. Thankfully, God is working with me on how to manage circumstances that aren't all the time easy and he gives me peace that my family is where we need to be right now. I am thankful for my husband's job, he enjoys it and is able to provide for us...I just miss him! And when I miss him, I feel the need to fill the void....I am aware of this feeling and accept it for what it is...