Overwhelming Love and Acceptance

Well, the ball is rolling and Hagie and I have started the steps towards getting custody of Victor. This is our second try together, and the first ended in major disappointment. My prayer is that this one works out in the best interest of Vic!

Today I have experienced so many emotions, most of all, anxiety and excitement. I remember the day I met Vic. He was about 9 or 10; shy, skinny like his daddy, a joy to be around and easy going. Not much has changed except now he comes with the demeanor of a seventeen year old male :). From day one, I accepted Vic as if he was my own. I know he has a mother but I am also very aware that his mother has not done right by him and he deserves better. The love I feel for this child that isn't biologically mine is overwhelming! And it's because of this love that I am able to maintain some level of sanity throughout the trials and tribulations regarding Vic. It's also this love that gives me such a feeling of excitement to FINALLY have him in our home.

Tonight I got to talk to Victor one on one. I loved every minute of it. Yes, it was an intense conversation about the difficult days to come involving court and school changes but it was also a conversation where I was able to provide this deserving child with unconditional love and security that all decisions are being made with a sincere attempt to meet his needs. Victor and I got to talk about trust and how he has often found it hard to trust either biological parent because of lies he was told by his maternal side of the family. The best part, Vic was able to verbalize that he has complete trust in me, "the second mom" as he refers to me, and I WILL NOT let him down!

I look forward to helping Vic get his room set up, I look forward to helping Vic navigate his way through a new school and making new friends, I look forward to being the "mom" at home when he gets home from school and most of all I look forward to offering this child security and love that he has not experienced in any other place. Did I mention that I look forward to having him in our home...praying that it is soon to be HIS home too!

I know God is in control and God has a plan for this family that includes Victor. I pray for peace and a decrease in anxiety as Hagie and I work together to make this upcoming transition (fingers crossed and praying) as easy as possible for Vic. I ask that you all pray for the same thing. I pray that Vic feels an overwhelming sense of unconditional love and acceptance and continues to talk openly with me about how he feels and what he needs.

Updates to come, hopefully, the ball keeps moving and we can have resolution to a situation that has been a long time in the making! Asking for prayers :)